[Natsume is definitely going to remember exactly what got that reaction. Later, though -- he's too busy savoring the feeling of Kusakabe shuddering apart atop him, the exhale against the back of his neck. Busy feeling smug about it.
And then Kusakabe moves, dragging Natsume back just this side of rough, and its surprising and exciting and he's still inside and then he's calling Natsume that and Natsume is whining against his own hand again and coming hard over Kuskabe's fingers.]
[He holds on tight through it, pumping until nothing else is spilling over his fingers. Enough that it drips onto his bedspread wrinkled and mussed beneath them, and dribbles down both their thighs when he finally does pull out. He tucks his nose against the side of Natsume's neck and breathes long and deep, coming down for a long moment without releasing him.]
I think... [He trails off as he considers his words, before letting them come as simple and clear as possible.] ...I think maybe I fell in love with you, at some point. Is that ok?
[This is Natsume's favorite part, that hazy, warm moment right after finishing, when they're still wrapped up in each other, before things have a chance to get cold and sticky and whatnot. All his normal prickliness is gone completely, just soft affection remaining.
He smiles lazily, reaches up and back, one shaky hand petting through Kusakabe's hair.] Mmm-hm. [A soft exhale as he shifts around, wanting to look at the other, wanting to see his face.] Me too. I think.
[Kusakabe's hand comes to rest over the back of Natsume's and bring it down to kiss his palm, his still reddened face half hidden by his hair. He's quiet for a moment, just lingering there like that.
Unfortunately for Natsume, Kusakabe has never been one to hide his feelings or even be particularly coy about them. So when he looks back again, there are very honest tears welling up that he doesn't seem inclined to do anything about. Still, he speaks through them, even as his lip wobbles in that unfortunate way that makes talking a little harder.]
I can't wait for you to go everywhere with me. When we're both free to go.
[By now Natsume knows that Kusakabe is just sort of...like this. He can say the smoothest, most suave things one moment, and then the next his emotions get the best of him and he's tearing up. Of course, that doesn't mean Natsume isn't gently distressed by it -- he is, making a soft, concerned sound and gingerly shifting around so he can reach up and wipe the tears away.]
I know. Me too. [He's very soft and fuzzy right now, so he leans up, kisses Kusakabe's nose, his cheeks, his mouth.] But I'm not going anywhere between now and then, okay? I'm not leaving.
[Kusakabe feels a great deal, very deeply, when it comes to the people that he cares about. Natsume has very much become one of those people, so of course he gets to see those wild ups and downs that come with Kusakabe barely restraining his emotions.
His arms remain around Natsume's middle and he leans into the kisses, calming considerably even with the swell of warmth that comes with the assurance that Natsume will stay with him, one way or another.
He does finally move so that they can clean up though, considering that they're cooling down and he's starting to feel sticky. They could curl up and nap together before they got eventually called down for supper, unless Natsume decided he had other things to do.]
Eventually, I'm going to find somewhere to live closer to school. Maybe with access to the train so I can come see you without having to take the bike all that way.
[Natsume is very pleased that the kisses help, and he'll happily keep them up, carding his still-shaky fingers through Kusakabe's hair as well, pushing it away from his face. He doesn't have anything else he'd rather do, besides...clean up, right.
Still, as he does, he smiles a little at the idea of Kusakabe being closer.] I'd like that. It wouldn't be too expensive? [There's the practicality, back for vengeance.]
[He scoots to the edge of the bed and eases out from under Natsume so that the two of them can clean up. He pulls his clothes straight after he wipes down everywhere he can still feel sticky, then leans to press his nose against the side of Natsume's head and pull him close again.]
I'll be ok. I'm going to have to get a job between now and college anyway. Maybe we can go on a real date for a change.
[The clean up is always annoying, taking time that could be spent snuggling. Natsume is never clingier than he is in these sorts of moments, tugging Kusakabe back down onto the bed and sprawling over him.]
That'd be nice. I've never been on one. [Toying with a button now.] It'd be nice to see you more often, too.
[He'd only been able to wipe up the most obvious mess before Natsume, in his clingy cuddling habit whenever they got intimate, dragged him back down. Of course Kusakabe could never resist him, and he wrapped his arms around the other boy to bring him close.]
I can't wait to be able to see you any time. We should go for coffee somewhere between now and then. Like regular dates.
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Date: 2022-06-21 04:48 am (UTC)And then Kusakabe moves, dragging Natsume back just this side of rough, and its surprising and exciting and he's still inside and then he's calling Natsume that and Natsume is whining against his own hand again and coming hard over Kuskabe's fingers.]
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Date: 2022-06-21 05:51 am (UTC)I think... [He trails off as he considers his words, before letting them come as simple and clear as possible.] ...I think maybe I fell in love with you, at some point. Is that ok?
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Date: 2022-06-21 01:10 pm (UTC)He smiles lazily, reaches up and back, one shaky hand petting through Kusakabe's hair.] Mmm-hm. [A soft exhale as he shifts around, wanting to look at the other, wanting to see his face.] Me too. I think.
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Date: 2022-06-21 05:45 pm (UTC)Unfortunately for Natsume, Kusakabe has never been one to hide his feelings or even be particularly coy about them. So when he looks back again, there are very honest tears welling up that he doesn't seem inclined to do anything about. Still, he speaks through them, even as his lip wobbles in that unfortunate way that makes talking a little harder.]
I can't wait for you to go everywhere with me. When we're both free to go.
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Date: 2022-06-22 02:06 am (UTC)I know. Me too. [He's very soft and fuzzy right now, so he leans up, kisses Kusakabe's nose, his cheeks, his mouth.] But I'm not going anywhere between now and then, okay? I'm not leaving.
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Date: 2022-06-22 07:56 am (UTC)His arms remain around Natsume's middle and he leans into the kisses, calming considerably even with the swell of warmth that comes with the assurance that Natsume will stay with him, one way or another.
He does finally move so that they can clean up though, considering that they're cooling down and he's starting to feel sticky. They could curl up and nap together before they got eventually called down for supper, unless Natsume decided he had other things to do.]
Eventually, I'm going to find somewhere to live closer to school. Maybe with access to the train so I can come see you without having to take the bike all that way.
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Date: 2022-06-23 01:56 am (UTC)Still, as he does, he smiles a little at the idea of Kusakabe being closer.] I'd like that. It wouldn't be too expensive? [There's the practicality, back for vengeance.]
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Date: 2022-06-23 06:20 am (UTC)I'll be ok. I'm going to have to get a job between now and college anyway. Maybe we can go on a real date for a change.
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Date: 2022-06-24 01:44 am (UTC)That'd be nice. I've never been on one. [Toying with a button now.] It'd be nice to see you more often, too.
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Date: 2022-07-03 01:24 pm (UTC)I can't wait to be able to see you any time. We should go for coffee somewhere between now and then. Like regular dates.