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From:

zgok

[Truth be told, Kusakabe had never really been one to plan for his own future. But the closer the time comes to actually consider things like that, the more the school tries to push different life plans, generally stable and professional careers and the college courses that go with all that. He knows what he wants, it just has a more nebulous path forward.

His fingers lace between Natsume's atop his chest, returning that grip with a more easygoing one of his own.]

It might be exciting, right? Especially if you've never had the chance to travel before.

From:

natzoom

[Natsume is quiet for a moment, thinking about it. Despite all his moving around as a child, he hasn't really traveled, not outside the prefecture. Into town is a big journey for him.]

...if I was with you. Yes, it would be. [Doing it alone would be too much.]

From:

zgok

[Traveling for the pleasure of it is definitely different from trying to find a home. Kusakabe has never had that kind of instability. He's also never been quite as aware of his uniquely privileged upbringing until he'd gotten to know Natsume and his...unique circumstances.

He brings the back of Natsume's hand to his lips, smiling against his knuckles.]

My manager said she might be able to get us a gig in France. It's a long shot, but if it happens I can't pass it up. Do you think you'd want to come with me all the way there?

[Had Natsume ever been on a plain before? He sort of doubts it. Flying for the first time probably wouldn't be great for him. Hopefully if this did end up happening they'd be able to take the same flight.]

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natzoom

[In spite of his perpetual attempts to seem cool, Natsume perks up at the mention of France.] France? The one in -- the European one? [No, some other France, Natsume.]

That's incredible!

From:

zgok

[Kusakabe has two modes: extremely, effortlessly cool, and....not. Very, very not. He does not in the slightest judge Natsume for not being cool.]

I'm gonna have to play with some new people. The other guys, they're moving away and doing other stuff but I really want this.

[He's only just managing to hide how excited he actually is about the idea. And how nervous he is.]

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natzoom

[Natsume, on the other hand, has abandoned hiding his emotions in favor of sitting up, almost bouncing on the bed with excitement.]

That's incredible! That's -- you're really doing it. You're going to do it!

[Beaming now:] I'm so proud of you!

From:

zgok

[Speaking of that instantly losable cool...]

You mean that?

[It's spoken quietly, with pink flooding up into his face and eyes growing just a little shiny with the welling of those emotions that he'd never been properly taught to temper. It's clear that it means a hell of a lot to him to hear that someone close to him believes in him, rather than just letting him do as he pleased and fall as he may. Like he's not just being humored.]

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natzoom

Of course I do. [Despite his veneer of distance, when Natsume chooses to be earnest, he is 100% about it. Like now, rising up on his knees and scooting closer, hands coming up to Kusakabe's face. No hiding from this emphatic validation.]

Plenty of people have things they care about or are good at, and they let the opportunity to do it pass by. You aren't. That's amazing and really, really brave.

From:

zgok

[Kusakabe's hands wrap around those on his face, but just press his palms against his face and soak in the warmth.]

That's why I want to take you with me. I want you to see it too when I go.

[Because he cares about Natsume and this is the best way he can think to make a big grand gesture that's fitting, especially considering how they met.]

From:

natzoom

[Natsume smiles, bumping his nose very gently against Kusakabe's.] That's what I want, too. I want to be there for all of it. I want to watch you do what you love.

[Then, lifting his chin a bit:] And I want to make sure the French fangirls don't try to steal you.

From:

zgok

Fangirls?

[The way Kusakabe says it, he's obviously joking. He's also joking when he continues.]

What if we go for a date out there in the open? Maybe I'll kiss you where everyone can see.

[Things they can't really do here, in other words.]

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natzoom

[Natsume's eyes widens a bit, then he huffs, leaning back to try and hide his blush.]

H-Hush, you, I'm being serious.

From:

zgok

[Kusakabe just follows, leaning close at the same time that Natsume moves back. He lets the end of his nose touch Natsume's, smiling sweetly.]

What if I made you part of the road crew while we're there? You can be there with me all the time. I could kiss you whenever I see you.

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natzoom

[Oh god, so much blushing. Blushing to his ears!!]

I-I’m not very good at lifting things. I might not be much help.

From:

zgok

[And he's clooooser.]

Moral support?

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natzoom

[Peeking up now, mistrustful nose-scrunch.] Is that a euphemism?

From:

zgok

[And his arms just drape around Natsume, letting them be pressed cheek to cheek.]

Only if you want it to be.

From:

natzoom

[Damn your effortless charm, Kusakabe. It's impossible to stay aloof in the face of it. Natsume huffs a bit more, then let's himself relax against the other's side.]

That...yes. That would be nice. Sometimes. [Like he doesn't think about euphemistic things a good 75% of the time.]

From:

zgok

[That was just something that happened as a teenage boy, everything is euphemisms and Kusakabe in particular really likes physical contact, which can't help.]

What about now?

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natzoom

[Natsume glances back at the closed door, mentally debating. Dinner isn't for a little bit, right? Right.

Then he nods, somehow looking both shy and very satisfied.] What...did you have in mind?

From:

zgok

[As soon as Natsume confirms, albeit shyly, that he's fine, Kusakabe eases behind him and buries his face against the other boy's neck, a kiss pressed to the space between his neck and shoulder just shy of his shirt collar. He wraps his arms loose around Natsume's middle and draws him back and right up against his chest.]

You'll let me know when to stop, right?

From:

natzoom

[Every time they do -- well, anything more than just hold hands, really, Natsume gets better at it, more relaxed, more confident. He supposes that's normal, that some people are just more shy to start.

It helps that everything, awkward or not, feels really really good. Like now, the kiss pressed to the back of his neck prompting a delighted shiver and rush of goosebumps.]

If I need to. [Sometimes he still does, though it's less and less because of nerves. It's usually because it's so much. Not yet, though, as he wiggles back, pressing into Kusakabe's chest.]

From:

zgok

[Natsume's growing comfort with him, and his willingness to tell him when to stop, is really all he could ask for. In the past he'd been with people that sort of went limp when he got close to them, like he was overwhelming or they were afraid of disappointing or upsetting him, and as he'd grown up and realized that he had taken advantage of that kind of thing in the past, he'd promised himself that he'd be better about it.

So he wraps an arm around Natsume's middle and continues to kiss and mouth along the back and side of his neck, the shorter fluff of the other's hair giving him plenty of access. He strays up toward an ear and nuzzles up against the back of it, then bites gently and keeps an ear out for whether the other liked that or not.]

You could tell me what to do. Since you know what you like.

From:

natzoom

[If you had asked him five seconds ago if he'd like being bitten, Natsume would've been neutral on the subject. Maybe? Who knows. But now that it's actually happened, that is -- that's nice. It gets a very embarrassing sort of whining sound that is immediately followed by an:] Oh my god. [And Natsume clamping a hand over his mouth.] I'm so sorry, I don't. Know what happened there.

[His face is so red now that he's probably radiating heat, and now Kusakabe wants him to talk more? Impossible. He's impossible. But at the same time it's probably...good for Natsume to say what he wants more. To ask for things. He does know what he likes. Embarrassing as it is.

So, finally, from under his hand:] Do that again.

From:

zgok

[Getting sounds like that out of Natsume makes it so, so very worth it to poke and prod and experiment when they're together. The radiating warmth from the way Natsume's blush spreads is echoed in the way Kusakabe turns pink, his face tucked against the side of Natsume's neck.]

Can I leave marks? Takashi-kun. [He murmurs the other's name in his ear, making sure to let his teeth graze over already sensitive skin.]

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